Less Testosterone Please

Yup, there it is. I'm lonely. There have been very few times in my life where I didn't have a companion, someone to share every moment with. I have asked to be alone for a while, I have detached myself from the people I love to be alone. I know there is pain in growth and growth in pain, I understand that and I acknowledge it. I'm just plain lonely. I guess I asked for it. 

But at the same time, it's hard to be sad in such an amazing location. And I am surrounded by loving beautiful people. I think it's just hard for me not to have a main man in my life. This might sound selfish, but I think I am used to having a lot of male attention and now that I'm not getting that on a regular basis, I feel deprived. Ha, well that's refreshing to admit. I think this time away from males will be really good for me. Learn to have a relationship with myself. Take me out on a date. Buy me some flowers :) Well, here goes an adventure.... wish me luck.