Pondering

We are taught from an early age that we need to find our one and only, marry, and pass on our blood. Love. Is that all there is to life? Is that the highlight of living? I know there is no feeling like being in love, I believe I have experienced it, but I wonder if there is anything more. I understand and realize that it is a big deal to create and care for a family, but what if I'm not ready for that yet? Am I just sitting here waiting to be ready? I want to leave behind more than offspring. I used to think that I NEVER wanted to have kids. Lately, I have been thinking differently. Especially since my family is so small. I think I wouldn't be apposed to having kids/a family when the time is right, but it's not right now. So, am I just going through life, experiencing things, meeting people, for the outcome to be to find the one to start that family with? And if that were the case, is there something wrong with that? So many questions have been coming up for me and I don't even necessarily ask them to find an answer right away. I know they will be answered in time. I guess that I am looking for my purpose on this world. My karma yoga. I smell a retreat coming soon. Don't get me wrong, I do want to share my life with someone at some point, but I want to know what I am "supposed" to be doing, while I look for that person or until I am ready. Maybe I have already found that person? How do I know? To whomever is reading this, like I said before, I'm not looking for answers, just sharing the thoughts in my head. Writing them down helps to get them out of my head.