RIP Louise - Hello new legs!

And then my car wouldn't start. Yup. RIP Louise. So sad, but at the same time, and listen carefully because I will only say this once, it's kind of nice being forced to take public transport, biking, and walking. I'm actually getting to SEE this amazing city. I didn't realize how much I wasn't seeing as I was driving by... 

I feel like the last couple days commuting on foot has been more educational than the last 5 months in the car. Yes, it takes more time and it's less convenient, but "There is more to life than increasing it's speed" ~ Mahatma Ghandi. 

My Mami would be happy to here that I have been riding a bike. Del (the studio owner, Jen's mom, and the lady who I lived with, with Heidi for several months, let me borrow hers). I confess, that I haven't been on a bike, in what must be 8 years?! Man. But it's so true, that you don't unlearn riding a bike. I got the hang of it within a couple streets. My legs on the other hand... whew... are turning green and bursting out of my pants! I thought my legs were muscular before? Well, surprise surprise - they can become thicker. 

Although I'm somewhat excited for this new experience, I am also not really thrilled about the storm that's coming this weekend. I might go hire a car. My Mami says I'm too sweet and I might just melt in the rain ;)

Tomorrow in a month I leave Perth Australia. I am trying not to let the last month be ruined by tears and uncontrolled emotions, but it's hard not to think about what might happen when I leave... if I'm coming back or not. I have strong feelings for a man. That makes things I bit more sticky. Do I think I could have a future with this man? I really don't know. I'm not sure I'm ready for a relationship right now, but is there a reason I met this guy right now? What is the lesson Universe? I want to know now - I'm done being patient. I guess I don't really have a choice... Oh life. You play a tough game. 

Goodnight world! Looking forward to a new adventure and a new day tomorrow :)

The next big thing...

It has been a long time since I have written, and a lot has happened. It is only a month and a week until I leave Perth Australia. What an adventure it has been and that is what I asked for, so, once again Universe, thank you for listening. And I'm sure there is a new adventure ahead, closer than I think. The fact that I don't know where my next paycheck is coming from has been weighing on my mind a lot lately. I've always had my life planned - I like to be in control. But I guess in reality we are never really in control, because we never really know what's going to happen next.
I am so grateful for my experiences here; for whom I met, for how I've grown. This is life experience that cannot be bought or sold.
Trying to stay in the moment is difficult. I have been emotional when I think about leaving. I have grown pretty close to someone here, who will be hard to leave. I have also fallen in love with this city. I love Perth. I see myself coming back here eventually, in the future. I don't want to keep waiting for the next big thing in my life. I want to learn how to enjoy now, so that I can stop this waiting game that so many people play. This is where I think a Vapassana retreat might come into play. I have options. I have choices. Don't forget that Nora.