Pondering

We are taught from an early age that we need to find our one and only, marry, and pass on our blood. Love. Is that all there is to life? Is that the highlight of living? I know there is no feeling like being in love, I believe I have experienced it, but I wonder if there is anything more. I understand and realize that it is a big deal to create and care for a family, but what if I'm not ready for that yet? Am I just sitting here waiting to be ready? I want to leave behind more than offspring. I used to think that I NEVER wanted to have kids. Lately, I have been thinking differently. Especially since my family is so small. I think I wouldn't be apposed to having kids/a family when the time is right, but it's not right now. So, am I just going through life, experiencing things, meeting people, for the outcome to be to find the one to start that family with? And if that were the case, is there something wrong with that? So many questions have been coming up for me and I don't even necessarily ask them to find an answer right away. I know they will be answered in time. I guess that I am looking for my purpose on this world. My karma yoga. I smell a retreat coming soon. Don't get me wrong, I do want to share my life with someone at some point, but I want to know what I am "supposed" to be doing, while I look for that person or until I am ready. Maybe I have already found that person? How do I know? To whomever is reading this, like I said before, I'm not looking for answers, just sharing the thoughts in my head. Writing them down helps to get them out of my head.

Music, Roiboos, and such

Aussie's love their holidays and this weekend, easter consists of Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday! Ha. So funny.

Yeah, I've been good. Spent last Sunday enjoying live music, eating, drinking, mingling, shopping, and most of all dancing! Heidi and I went to the Blues N Roots festival. It was awesome just to spend the day mindlessly enjoying the entertainment. 

Went to the beach today with Kira (another teacher here) and although it was a bit grey it was still warm and beautiful! Water was still and the sand felt so nice between my toes. I thought about how difficult it would be to live far away from the water. Not sure how I did it for a year and a half in Tucson...

Chocolate covered goji berries are my new craving. Doritos are still up there though.

I have been meeting with more people about Life Force and giving presentations. It feels good to be sharing again and excited to see who is going to join me. I ordered a book online that I am very excited to read. Alex (a leader of Life Force) suggested it for me, titled "The Art of Non-conformity". I think it will help a lot with me moving forward with my business. I truly believe that Life Force International is my way to be free. Free from having to teach full time, free to travel more, free to see my family more, free to do what I want when I want! 

Heidi is gone this week. She is up in Broome for 7 days with some friends and I have to say I have grown accustomed to her company. She leaves for good 10 days after she gets back from Broome. I'll be pretty sad, but I have to say, it will be nice to have the car to myself, so I can meet with even more people for LFI and just be more free to move about.

I found a Roiboos tea! I make it with vanilla soy milk and a little honey. Helps me feel closer to my Mami - Lieb dich Mamichen!

Outside of my Yoga Bubble

Yay! New friends! Now, don't get me wrong, I LOVE my yoga world, but I think it's important to have something to distract me from it :) I met up with a girl named Josie, who is someone I met through Marta (a friend of my parents). We had to laugh because, neither of us have actually met Marta! So, we laughed, talked, and had a drink at the pub with her roommates and then they invited me over for salad and quesadillas. What a sweet group of girls! So glad to have met them and look forward to seeing how our friendship unfolds.
You know, I've been here for 7 weeks now and I still can't get over the prices sometimes... I mean, our friend bought a banana for $4 dollars! 1 banana!
I have been playing the piano a lot. Trying to write some new stuff, but getting frustrated, so I have been learning covers. New affirmation: I have the ability and talent to write a fabulous, new, hit!
Tomorrow is a big day! Tomorrow is the first time in a LONG time where I am going to see some Live music. And the first time I have ever went to an ALL DAY music festival. I can't wait! It's called Blues N Roots. Bob Dylan, Michael Franti, Elvis Costello, just to name a few artists performing. I think it will just be super good to mindlessly walk around, meet new people, eat good food, and listen to really good music.
I can always tell when "my time" is near, when I start crying at tv shows.... here comes a week of chocolate, tears, and pain. Thank you mother nature!

Don't Forget Your Jacket!

It's dropped about 10 degrees in one day. It's definitely fall here! The colors are beautiful and the leaves dance around the cars as we zoom by. I brought warm clothes for cold weather, so I feel prepared, but Heidi on the other hand has NOTHING. Not even shoes! She has been living in flippies the whole time. So, we got a tip of a department store having one of it's biggest sales of the year right now and we are headed their way this week :) AND we just got paid! This could be dangerous. Actually, I have been really good with saving money. I'm proud of myself.
I was driving the car (Louise) and I thought, "Huh. I'm so used to driving on this side of the street now, I can't even imagine driving on the other side of the street!"
Tomorrow is the last day that Heidi and I are housesitting and kittie sitting for Jen and Adam. Back to Del's! I'll be hanging out here soon again though, when Jen and Adam leave for London. Love little Gigi (the kittie)! Although, she likes to use her teeth....
Tried some Iyengar yoga (free class) at the Lululemon store. And I walked out of there without purchasing anything! So hard. Sad part is, I'm actually a bit sore in the shoulders from doing chataranga (high plank, low plank into upward dog). Ps - I hate plank, but I know it's good for me because I am so resistant to it. hahaha
Got to talk to my Cobit this week on Skype. That was the best!!! I haven't talked with him since I left the states! So not cool, but it was so nice to catch up and fill him in on all the gossip - it was not without tears. I feel like such a sob bucket since I've been here. Just one little thing sets me off - sometimes... shhhhh, it could be a tv show. Don't tell.
Alright, off to go try some pizza at a local pizza place called "Little Caesar's" hahaha nothing like the "Little Caesar's" in the states (hopefully).

Cheese and Smiles

Lots of stuff this week!

Played lawn bowling. It's a pretty popular sport here. It's kind of like bowling just on a lawn and you don't knock over other balls. You take a black weighted ball and try to get it as close to the small white ball as possible without hitting it - so fun! Used to be for elderly, now it's popular with the youngsters, because they sell cheap beer at the clubs. It was a blast! 

Heidi and I are house sitting and kitty sitting for Jen and Adam (the studio owners of North and South Perth Studios). I told her I feel like we are a married couple - and Gidget, the kittie, is like our baby. haha

She is darling and lots of fun to play with. I need that kind of innocent, animal energy around me right now. Makes me smile. 

I am looking forward to my day off on Saturday. I feel like Heidi and I have both been teaching ALL of the classes between the 2 studios! We set up a little spa day at the local spa that is run by college students and therefore cheaper. $30 full body massage here we come!

Had REAL mexican food for the first time, here in Perth. I say REAL, because a lot of mexican restaurants here are pretty bad... taste, quality, everything. This is what the "cheese" part of the title, of the blog, is referencing. Yummy melted cheese. mmmmm

Went rock climbing and took Heidi for her first time! It was AWESOME!!! The owner of the gym made us a deal, that if we talked to the Bikram studio owners and we could work something out to advertise at each others places of business, that he would let us have 50% off of day passes when we come in the climb! I'm on it!

Update on my mood:

Still lonely, just trying not to let it take over my life. 

Heidi and I Lawn Bowling!

Look at those eyes!

Feisty Gidget

Less Testosterone Please

Yup, there it is. I'm lonely. There have been very few times in my life where I didn't have a companion, someone to share every moment with. I have asked to be alone for a while, I have detached myself from the people I love to be alone. I know there is pain in growth and growth in pain, I understand that and I acknowledge it. I'm just plain lonely. I guess I asked for it. 

But at the same time, it's hard to be sad in such an amazing location. And I am surrounded by loving beautiful people. I think it's just hard for me not to have a main man in my life. This might sound selfish, but I think I am used to having a lot of male attention and now that I'm not getting that on a regular basis, I feel deprived. Ha, well that's refreshing to admit. I think this time away from males will be really good for me. Learn to have a relationship with myself. Take me out on a date. Buy me some flowers :) Well, here goes an adventure.... wish me luck.